I realised something this evening. God can only take you so far, then its up to you to go further, stay where your at, or fall behind. I don’t want to live my life feeling like I’ve made everyone else happy except myself. I learned a long time ago not to depend on anyone for happiness. I used to think, “if I could only make someone else’s life happy, bring meaning to their life, then…” I don’t know, then I’de be happy just to know that I’ve made someone else’s life happy. But what has happened is that I have left myself behind.
One thing though is I hold no regrets in my life. I have always followed my heart and I wouldn’t be who I am today without going through the trials of my past. I haven’t by any means made all the right choices, but I don’t ever wonder “What if…” because I also know that I am here where I am for a reason, a purpose, and that I am in the right time and era. Someone reading this probably will think I am double talking or not making any sense…
